A thought or 2 after 4 months

I was looking at my blog today and realized that it's been 4 months since my last post. That is too long to not have added a new thought or 2! My life has changed dramtically since my last post. I am back in school taking Anatomy and Physiology I where I work. This class is a prerequisite course to a Masters degree in Public Health. I am planning to go on a mission trip to Ukraine this Christmas vacation. I'll probably have some other news to share later, but it's a little too early to say anything! Life is busy, crazy, and above all good. God is there with me sharing my burdens and joys. He guides my path and gives me wisdom. I hope the same for you.

Waiting

I think that it's way past time to post a blog thought. I should probably write a little more often than every 2 months! I have grown a great deal in the last 2 months. God has shown me many things like what a great family and friends I have. Everyone's been so supportive of me and my feelings. Every week I've had things to do and people to see. In the midst of all this, I've been waiting on God to show me the way He wants my life to be. I've spent countless hours praying for guidance on what to do with my life right now and how to move on from my relationship with Mike. God has impressed on me that I should wait - that something really great is about to happen. I was thinking about all this while running errands and praying to be patient. God reminded me that He asked many people in the Bible to wait too - Joseph, Moses, Hannah, Abraham and Sarah. They each had to wait on God to perform a miracle. It seemed like God wasn't listening, but in reality He was. God had a fabulous plan for each of the people I thought of. God waited to reveal this plan until the time was right. So here I am on June 1, 2008 waiting on God to reveal His fabulous plan for me. I'm excited just thinking about it. It makes me wonder what God sees in me. It also makes me wonder what He has in mind for each of you too. All you have to to do is ask.

Life's disappointments

This Sabbath afternoon finds me sad for 2 reasons. First of all I am no longer dating Mike. We talked this afternoon and decided to remain friends, but no longer date each other. It was not an easy conversation or a fun one, but one that had to be made. He brought it up, but I was not surprised really. The second sad news was that I heard today that one of the children that occasionally attended my Sabbath school class died last week. He was only 8 years old. I don't know what happened other than he stopped breathing suddenly. It is hard to know why such a horrible thing would happen to such a young boy. Me being me, I'm trying hard to make sense out of such a horrid, no good, very bad day. I do know that God is sad and crying with me. He knows my hurt and my pain. He knows the deepest desires of my heart. Something positive will come out of all this. I write this not knowing when or how God will do it, but knowing that He will bring me out stronger and more confident in Him. ""For I know the plans I have for you, ' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" Jeremiah 29:11 NIV

A new interest in life

Life has taken an unexpected but happy turn lately. I'll let the picture speak for itself!

New Year's Resolutions a Month Late

I was realizing this quiet Friday night that I haven't written a blog entry for over a month. I guess I better put down my cup of tea and allow Michael W. Smith fade into the background as I figure out what to write about....... One of my new year's resolutions is to allow myself to be changed by God into what He wants me to be. I am by nature a person who tends to doubt herself and overanalyze life. Thirty-two years of honing this attitude is a hard habit to break, but God is faithful and is helping me. This week I had 2 reminders that I should keep going. I have been reading My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers for part of my daily worship. The January 30th entry was about how to discern God's voice. "Get into the habit of saying, 'Speak Lord,' and life will become a romance." Throughout that day, I would start to worry about something or overanalyze. Then that simple but profound statement would come to mind. Everytime I prayed that prayer God would calm me down and show me what to do. Then today I had another reminder. In my new job as an assistant registrar, I have to look at the transcripts of the students who are planning to graduate this year. I met with the chair of the nursing department today to talk with her about what I had found so far so she would know whether the students are ready to graduate. During our conversation, she stopped me and asked if I liked my new job. When I said yes, she told me that my actions showed her I loved my job. I was taken aback, because I have recently been wondering if I should teach again. I told a friend last week that I wished God would show me if I made the right choice! I asked and God answered. God didn't stop with that. He also sent me a student today. A student came to talk with me about a petition that she had made. I had to tell her that the petition was denied. When she started to cry, I pushed the kleenex box over to her and listened. As she left, I gave her a hug and she thanked me for listening to her. These 2 incidents don't seem that significant, but it was God's way of reminding me to continue where I am so I can become more of what He wants me to be.

Thoughts on Christmas

I was thinking this weekend about what a miracle Jesus's birth was. How could the Creator of the universe become a tiny baby? The lyrics of a song I heard on the radio started me thinking about it. The words expressed the idea that the tiny baby hands that reached out in the dark were the same hands that spanned the universe at Creation. I wonder what went on in heaven the day that God the Son was transformed into a human fetus. What did Mary feel? Did she know the moment she became pregnant? I like to think that she felt the presence of the Holy Spirit. How was His DNA formed? He must have had a strand from Mary. What was the other half? Did God replicate Joseph's DNA or did He create a strand? I have always loved the story of Jesus's birth, especially the version found in the book My Bible Friends. "Clip-clop, clip-clop went Small Donkey's hooves as he slowly climbed the last hill." My parents would read me this story from the time I was a little kid. I take it for granted. I want this Christmas to be more meaningful and purposeful in that I reflect more on the Messiah's miraculous birth. I need to be like Gladys Herdman in the book The Best Christmas Pageant Ever declaring to the world - "Hey! Unto you a Child is born!" Ellen White expressed in The Desire of Ages what I feel is the most important part of the story: "In the fields where the boy David had led his flock, shepherds were still keeping watch by night. Through the silent hours they talked together of the promised Saviour, and prayed for the coming of the King to David's throne. "And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord." ...Then the joy and glory could no longer be hidden. The whole plain was lighted up with the bright shining of the hosts of God. Earth was hushed, and heaven stooped to listen to the song,-- "Glory to God in the highest,And on earth peace, good will toward men." Oh that today the human family could recognize that song! The declaration then made, the note then struck, will swell to the close of time, and resound to the ends of the earth. When the Sun of Righteousness shall arise, with healing in His wings, that song will be re-echoed by the voice of a great multitude, as the voice of many waters, saying, "Alleluia: for the Lord God omnipotent reigneth." Rev. 19:6. (p. 47-48)

New Job

Life has taken a very interesting turn the last few weeks. I am now the assistant registrar for AS Nursing and MS Nurse Anesthetist students. I didn't know the job was available until the registrar asked me if I wanted to be considered. I interviewed and then received the job last week. I've been training this week and then next week I'll move into my new office. My job will involve working with the students and their school records. I'll be checking transcripts, talking with teachers and other staff, seeing what classes from other colleges can be transferred, and making sure students are ready to graduate. I solicit your prayers as I make the transition into my new life. I know that God lead me to this job and saved it just for me. God knew that I needed to make a change into something more. I was happy as a financial aid counselor, but I realize now that I felt confined to the position. Life is good!