New Year's Resolutions a Month Late

I was realizing this quiet Friday night that I haven't written a blog entry for over a month. I guess I better put down my cup of tea and allow Michael W. Smith fade into the background as I figure out what to write about....... One of my new year's resolutions is to allow myself to be changed by God into what He wants me to be. I am by nature a person who tends to doubt herself and overanalyze life. Thirty-two years of honing this attitude is a hard habit to break, but God is faithful and is helping me. This week I had 2 reminders that I should keep going. I have been reading My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers for part of my daily worship. The January 30th entry was about how to discern God's voice. "Get into the habit of saying, 'Speak Lord,' and life will become a romance." Throughout that day, I would start to worry about something or overanalyze. Then that simple but profound statement would come to mind. Everytime I prayed that prayer God would calm me down and show me what to do. Then today I had another reminder. In my new job as an assistant registrar, I have to look at the transcripts of the students who are planning to graduate this year. I met with the chair of the nursing department today to talk with her about what I had found so far so she would know whether the students are ready to graduate. During our conversation, she stopped me and asked if I liked my new job. When I said yes, she told me that my actions showed her I loved my job. I was taken aback, because I have recently been wondering if I should teach again. I told a friend last week that I wished God would show me if I made the right choice! I asked and God answered. God didn't stop with that. He also sent me a student today. A student came to talk with me about a petition that she had made. I had to tell her that the petition was denied. When she started to cry, I pushed the kleenex box over to her and listened. As she left, I gave her a hug and she thanked me for listening to her. These 2 incidents don't seem that significant, but it was God's way of reminding me to continue where I am so I can become more of what He wants me to be.